...what i want to be when i grow up...

"Great people are those who make others feel that they, too, can become great..." - Mark Twain

The past few days have been more toxic as so many things are drawing nearer and nearer, and I feel they're ganging up on me. The National Modern Dance Competition is creeping up on me, and I still haven't practiced the contest piece whilst smoking. Woe is me, ang tanging gusto kong sabihin sa langit. hay, kung hindi ko lang kaibigan si Stephen ay matagal na akong umatras sa sayaw na ito. Una, 'di naman talaga ako naninigarilyo. Pangalawa, jologs na ako sumayaw at jologz akong magbilang kapag nagiiba ang time signature. Nampota. I know that really sounds so kantospeak, but I feel that this will be one of the very few last chances that I'll be dancing in my lifetime. I just feel that I should be concentrating on my major career which is fashion and costume design.

Secondly, the first wedding I'm doing designs for, is already just around two weeks away. Natetense ako dahil medjo aalis ako for five days and I need to fit all of the dresses para may nangyayari habang wala ako..sobrang tenseness na ako.. Pero masaya ako at kahit papano'y magiging parte ako ng pag-realize ng isang lifelong commitment between two people. Seeing them really makes me want to get married myself, and design my whole wedding entourage. Parang gusto ko na naka-thai pants ang lahat ng boys at ang mga girls ay naka-bikini and sarong. Bongga di ba? Ang kulang na lang ay ang Prince Charming ko para makumpleto ang buong celebration. But I'm not really in a hurry naman, I've realized that one can't rush love because it will happen if it's the right time.

Gusto ko lang din i-share na masaya ako't nakatulong ako sa palabas ng Makiling friends and classmates sa kanilang palabas sa Virgin Labfest sa CCP nung friday at saturday. It was fun seeing some of my batchmates and schoolmates from PHSA act again and come together to weave a story right before our eyes. It made me feel proud of my roots as an artist, to look back at all of those Makiling years of my life. Hehe. Senti moment. Pakshet, what I would give to return to any day in my four years of being up in the mountains. Ho hum.

Meeting Lotlot, accidentally, at Gloria Jeans coffee shop, a while ago made me realize that I still want to teach someday, when the opportunity presents itself. To be given the chance to mold young minds, is the second highest responsibility in the universe. For the first is to birth and raise a child. Medjo pareho rin yun, pero isipin mo yung isang buong classroom na puno ng mga batang nakatanghod sa 'yo at handang makinig sa sasabihin mo't ipapangaral.

Naisip na gusto kong maging nanay o tatay balang araw...

At magluto ng almusal sa umaga, magplantsa ng uniporme, manggising ng asawa at mga anak at kumaway habang papaalis ang school bus at kotse. Maglaba ng mga damit, at maghugas ng mga pinggan, magsampay ng mga damit sa tanghali at manuod ng teleserye after lunch. Tawagan ang assistant ko sa opisina at secretary para malaman kung okay naman ang lahat, sabay drive to an appointment. Drive back, change clothes, salubungin ang mga anak from the school bus. Maghanda ng meryenda, tumulong sa assignments at maghanda ng hapunan.

In other words, I'd like to be a housewife/househusband someday...wala lang...naisip ko lang. Looking at how my mom guided us way back then and until now, I realize that she had a blast raising all of us and looking after us. I guess, I just want to feel that too...

Ho hum.

Here's the housewife-wannabe signing off for now..heehee...