...after the rain..

I never thought I'd be alive to write this entry, after everything that has happened this month. The pictorials, wedding, Metrobank event and the unexpected typhoon that gave us a glimpse of what life was during the cave man years. I must admit that I was very much scared that life as we know it will never go back to the way it is, with the eternal brownout, despicable heat and loss of telecommunication possibilities.

damn milenyo...

I've actually realized three things during this tumultuous time...

1. Masarap maligo ng walang ilaw kundi mga kandila lang, with Sarah Mclachlan singing in the background and may neutrogena foam all around.

2. Masarap mahiga sa kama at matulog ng higit sa 8 oras, tulad ng maraming tao at magpahinga tulad ng normal na tao.

3. Namimiss ko na si Arvin...( and I wish that we were together during the typhoon, when i realized the first two points)...ho hum...pakshet.
   To cap it all off, I'm really glad that everything's almost okay now. I still have headaches concerning Peta's Don_Q but it's still liveable compared to what I've been through and what waits in the wings of my life
   ...heehee..

..defying gravity...

The past few days have been extremely interesting as I have finished attending to the production design for the Metrobank Art Awards and the Tabanao-Gonzales wedding. The dresses we're well received and I think I have additional clients due to the good review of the entourage garments plus I've got new friends (Ate Tinnie and Miss May). Pictures of the wedding are available, just click HERE. It seems that great artistic achievements demand less sleep on the part of the artist, I think to myself. But I am very much thankful that those two events are off my list now, and that I'm on my way to birthing the costumes for Don_Q for the PETA critique night which will happen on the 25th kaya medjo tense ako until I've delivered the last piece of costume for this play. And I must admit that I'm not extremely happy about the fact that my name wasn't included on the poster, but I'm not really extremely bothered either. I just think to myself that it isn't my name on the poster that'll define my work but the magic that I weave on stage when the play begins. My work as a costume designer will be very important as I will birth their avatars, their cyber looks.

No use in crying over the absence of my name on a poster, I guess.

Work aside, I must say that the past few days have been happy for me as Arvin and I have been mending the remains of the confusion that settled in during my Vigan trip. With the toxicity in the work area remaining extremely high, I am thankful that He is with me, though still not literally. I still wish that Laoag was 2 jeeps or a train ride away, and not 12 hours of bus ride. And yes, I am really looking forward to going there when Don_Q wraps up. Everyone's saying that this might just be the person that was worth the wait. I am reminded by a text sent by a good friend.

"Someday, someone will come into your life and make you realize why it never really worked out with anybody else..."

I suddenly smile at the thought and think to myself that Arvin might just be that person. I'm crossing my fingers and clicking my heels thrice just for luck. My past relationships have taught me that slow and sure is the way to go, that is why I am trying my best not to be an impulse freak but rather a mature gay citizen and be responisible when it comes to loving. I wouldn't want to be hurt again just because I was rash or impatient. Somehow, him being in a far away place and me with multiple jobs is form of test. A test of patience and ingenuity. I must admit that having a long distance relationship isn't the easiest thing in the world, nor is having multiple and overlapping projects that require utmost focus and effort.

Amidst the emotions and stress that comes with building a career and graduating from college, I find that I can say proudly that I have an interesting life.

Salamat po, God...

..ayayatenka...

... Baby, I am no longer lost...

and I remain yours...

...crying like a church on a monday...

I'm here staring at my computer and just got back yesterday from our trip to Vigan. Somehow, the trip didn't turn out as well as i planned. Much to my dismay, I did not have the chance to meet Mr. Ilocos Norte or have some semblance of a relationship as I have predicted before I packed my things for the long and uneventful 12 hour trip.

I guess the quote serves true, "You can't always bake your cake and eat it too."..So much for wishful thinking and hoping for the best.

The trip has given me good memories of radiant sunshine hitting the historic pavement of Colonial houses, star-laden skies and silver lined beaches..but sadly, the Vigan trip has given me so much confusion that I did not expect. I feel kinda lost in the confines of my own skin.

Maybe I weaved my stories too soon...

p.s (I'm just thankful there's so much work to distract me most of the time this month. Maybe I should heed the heavens..)

ho hum.

..government announcement #259

3 cities you’ve lived in
-- quezon city (mula noon, hanggang ngayon..i love cubao)
-- manila (heehee..freshman ako nun.)
-- los baños (apat na taon ng hayskul..)

3 malls you usually go to
-- gateway (or should i say GAYWAY)
-- alimall (tatlong kembot lang ang layo)
-- robinson malate (hay, memories)...

3 of your favorite places to eat
-- Hap Chang (malate branch..panalo!)
-- tokyo tokyo (pampamilya at date na rin)
-- Tapsihan dito sa amin...

3 schools you’ve attended
-- Diliman Prep. School
-- Philippine High School for the Arts
-- DLS- College of Saint Benilde

3 favorite foods
-- siomai ( go Hap Chang japanese siomai!)
-- french fries ng mcdo
-- tofu ng hapchang..

3 favorite drinks
-- COKE (kailangan pa bang imemorize yan?)
--Pepsi X
--Orange juice na malamig

3 things you’ve done today
-- Nagmeet ni Alab para sa stage design ng Metrobank Art awards.
-- Nagpunta ng Divi at namili ng tela.
-- Went to rehearsals...

3 things found in your wallet
-- csb ID ko
-- SM Advantage card
-- barya at calling cards...

3 last persons you saw
-- Si Mama ( na pumasok na sa opisina)
-- Si Step (na lumarga na rin)
-- Si Nanay ( lola ko, na lumarga na rin, ngayon ngayon lang..)

3 things you usually buy
-- Art Supplies (di ko kasi alam kung san napupunta)
-- Tela (kailangan ko kasi kumita..)
-- Load (para matawagan si Mr. Ilocos Norte)

3 persons you always text
-- Si Arvin (Mr. Ilocos Norte)
-- Si Day (sister Goddess)
-- Si Isab (sisterette)

3 things found in your bag
ang dakilang Clear book na naglalaman ng buhay trabaho ko, mga papeles, at measuring tape
charger (ang bilis kasi maubos ng battery ko)
-- toiletries (deodorant, toothpaste and pabango)

3 favorite colors
Black
-- Green
White (pakshet, very benildean ang mga kulay...)

3 favorite parts of your house
-- my bed
-- my bed
-- and yes, did i mention my bed...

3 things you're planning to buy
-- oras para sa lovelife
-- a vacation for myself and longer time to enjoy mr. Ilocos Norte's company
-- a high speed sewing machine, edger, and a cutting table...para sa lumalaking kabuhayan...

3 things you're thinking of right now
-- My Life right now.
-- My sked for today
-- and meeting Arvin finally..

lastly..

3 Movies of all time...
---Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (panalo ang paglimot...)
---In the Mood for Love (I will always love Asian films)
... and last but not the least or most favorite...
---Sweet November ( i can still remember how I cried...)


p.s ( i should be going back to work now but am extremely bored..pardon my survey..)

...toxic...

Just finished with the finals and am regretfully saying that I flunked Fashion Trends with Malu Savet, not because I'm a pathetic excuse for a fashion student but because I couldn't get up on wednesday mornings and get to her 9-12nn class. I wish I was really good with being punctual. Wish lang naman.

I must admit that there many changes that have set in my life since the mr. Ilocos Norte entry. A string of other events have come in fresh from the organizers, and so I guess this is a good time to map out my schedule for September, for all you guys to see.

Vigan Performance- Sept 7, 8, 9

Fitting for Tabanao-Gonzales wedding- 10

Preparation for Metrobank Art awards- 11, 12, 13, 14

Metrobank Art awards- 15

Makiling Ensemble pictorial- 17

Tabanao-Gonzales wedding- 17

PETA night for Don Quixote- 23

Official Opening of Don Quixote- 29

I just hope that I do live long enough to get to October. Ho hum...

On another note, I am getting quite tense about our trip to Vigan as I will be meeting Arvin (Mr. Ilocos Norte) for the first time. I must admit that the late night talks with him have given me enough background on who he is as a person. Somehow I think that this might be the start of some thing beautiful. For everyone out there who haven't got a clue on who I'm talking about. Arvin is a 21 year old college professor teaching english whom I met in www.guys4men.com and am talking to right now. He adores Pablo Neruda and can easily rival my senti poetic musings on text. He makes me happy, kahit na toxic at pamatay ang mga araw ko. And the only catch or snag in our story is the reality that he lives in Laoag, which is about 10-12 hours from Manila. But I'm still thankful that my love interest doesn't live as far as Dubai, that would simply be sheer torture. Tulad na lang ng nararamdaman ng isa kong bestfriend sa kanyang minamahal.. Ho hum..

Just helped two of my friends get dressed for awards night they were attending, Ate Cats for Aliw awards and Ate Liza for the Palanca. I helped Ate Cats pick shoes and a dress and did her make up and hair then I made a rockstar chick skirt for Ate Liza. Kakapagod maging stylist at designer , pramis...

Well, that's all for now I'll be sharing some insights next entry on my learnings as I've come across my first ex's blog and multiply site and the recent developments in my love life and career..

Here's me looking forward to having a hand to hold soon and graduating na rin...amidst my toxic life..

***happy***happy***joy***joy

......................................ho hum.......................