..down and out..

i am so sick with a fever and sniffles in my system...

ho hum..ito na yung sinasabi ni arvin at mama..lagot

p.s (always listen to your mom and partner.)

...so long sleepyhead..

I am a walking zombie today. Slept on the office floor to alleviate the lack of sleep on my part since I had to finish a bag for my Special Merchandising class. I know this isn't the best day, I've still got rehearsals for the December show at 6pm sa Bambang. Antok na antok na ako, sobra...

Just finished a photoshoot for BLip Magazine last monday and it was quite interesting, having all of those interesting people in one room and making their faces and having them pose for the camera...heehee.. Syempre nagpaka- cam whore na naman kami ni Joanah..

Yun na muna...bangag pa ang bakla..

...madaling araw ng lunes...

nakatitig ako sa computer, pinapakinggan ang tikatik ng mga daliri ko sa keyboard ng lumang computer namin, nagiisip kung anu nga bang pwde kong ibahagi tungkol sa araw na ito.

nagturo ng cotillion...nagresearch ng thai and korean costumes sa net...nanuod ng sine...enjoyed PULSE...although medjo natakot ako dahil nung una ay ako pa lang ang bumili ng ticket, so i kinda imagined myself being all alone inside the theater tapos horror yung pinanuod ko. buti na lang may bumili na lima pang tao...naaliw naman ako kahit papano dahil nakapanuod ako ng sine dahil medjo nakaraket ng onti...looking forward to finishing the don_Q liquidation for peta by tomorrow...meeting with joanah for BliP...going to Divi for tela and patahi...

mahaba pa ang araw.

pagod na naman ang bakla.

pakshet.

...lonely friday night, all the stars came down..

I am not entirely surprised that I'm home at 10pm during a friday evening. Just walked in, from a rather lost day. I woke up late for my marketing class and just had enough time to get my Fotogra class pictures developed before I went to PETA.

ho hum.

I must admit that there are these type of days that seem to pass you by. Lately, I've been having such a hard time with this current financial destabilization on my part due to the decrease of my projects right now. I don't really have any big account right now, just a string of minor projects here and there and I'm still up to neck in small debts due to my inability to be financially organized and properly manage my time.

ho hum.

But even if I'm kinda poor right now, I must say that I am happy.. so so happy.

diyosa signing out..

p.s (just want to share with you, my new calling card design for my up and coming label, PANAGINIP, for my made to order bridal wear and anything you can actually think of, pati costumes, make-up, and styling Kulang na lang pati Tocino ibenta ko, heehee..di pa naman ako desperado.)

front

and back

p.s ng p.s (psst..if you have any friends who want some clothes done, especially the soon to be brides, kindly pass my number naman..heehee.. a public service announcement from santi..)

...wasted...

There are days which your head feels like it was made of stone, feel like you've puked out all of your insides and wish you didn't do all of the things you did last night even those which you don't remember. Thank God I'm almost okay now if you discount the fact that my head still feels a bit woozy after a day of sleeping it off.

Johnny, Day, Ruth and I went to Avs' birthday last night at Bed Space bar located in Greenbelt 2. We were actually there to just have a few drinks, celebrate with Avs and Shing then go home with our minds in the proper place. We arrived early and couldn't find anyone we knew, so we all headed to Mcdonald's beside Greenbelt One to get dinner before we drank some liquor. Unfortunately, we got back late in time for open bar. Avs then propped a bottle of Cuervo tequila on our table and we all just stared at it and then smiled. There were only four of us taking turn on that one botle and we managed to down the Cuervo in about an hour. We were all woozy and giggly after the first bottle, then Shing arrived and a 2nd bottle was then placed on our table, courtesy of Avs' friend. Half-way into the second bottle, all of us were having a hard time going to the cr without stumbling over and making a fool of ourselves.

Around 1:30pm, all of us decided to drop by Mcdonald's to get some coffee since all of us were quite broke that day so some cheap coffee was the deal to combat an escalating hangover. Ruth was finding it hard to walk already so I escorted her from Bed Space to Mcdo, even remembered seeing Will Devaughn of the McRice burger commercial along the way. Thank God, I didn't trip or make a fool of myself. heehee. Ruth was already incoherent when we arrived at Mcdonald's. I was still a bit okay, so I went to the counter and ordered some coffees and a cheeseburger meal for Johnny and went back to out table. The alcohol certainly made all of us three notches noisier than everybody else, maybe that's why a waiter was already stationed near us, in case we'd wreak havoc or something. Ruth was so wasted that she even dipped her hair accidentally when she rested her head on the table. After 30 minutes, we then decided to head back to Day's place and rest, so Johnny and Day got the car and I was left with Ruth and Shing and waited outside of Mcdo. We then bid Shing goodbye as we sped off back to Libertad. Nothing exciting really happened on the way way home, besides a puke-fest. Unfortunately, Ruth wasn't able to hold it in before we got home, I'm just glad I got most of it inside the plastic bag...

Arriving at Day's place, I carried Ruth inside and cleaned her up a bit, then helped Johnny clean up the car. Somehow, I felt my own puke-fest escalating inside me, and didn't want to sleep knowing that I didn't feel well. For everyone who's reading this I do hope you don't try what I did. Since I wasn't planning on waking up with puke all over me in bed, I induced my own puke-fest by reaching down my throat and letting it all go in the CR. Bulemia alert, you must think...heehee...Then I changed my clothes and headed to lalalalalala land...

Waking up, I saw Ruth sitting on the bed and not looking good. It turns out that she's had about 5-6 more puke-fest moments when she woke up. Then I realize I have this minor headache hanging at the back of my head, thank God it's a not a major head splitting one. Slept through most of the day and was only pressured by Day to get up at around 7pm because I had to accompany her to get her laundry. Ruth left somewhere around lunchtime, and I didn't notice that much. Too bad I wasn't able to say goodbye.

Just got home about two to three hours ago, and am looking forward to more sleep after typing this. I apologize for everyone out there who's having their lunch or planning to eat after this. I just couldn't contain my self to not write about this experience, since the last time I got drunk was about 7-8 months ago and wasn't as horrific as this one. All I can say is that I will never drink that much again, or if ever I'm going to drink again it'll be in the confines of my home or a friend's house...never in public. I must say that I am amazed at Johnny, for being so good at holding his alcohol and being in the right mind to still drive us home safely. Thank God I'm alive to be able to write this, I think to myself.

I regret to not being able to return Arvin's texts today nor call him due to two things; One, my pending poverty and Two, I was so wasted today and I didn't want him to hear how wasted I was.

ho hum...

I will never drink that much tequila again...I will never drink that much tequila again...I will never drink that much tequila again...I will never drink that much tequila again...I will never drink that much tequila again...I will never drink that much tequila again...I will never drink that much tequila again...I will never drink that much tequila again...I will never drink that much tequila again...

I tell myself, over and over again..

p.s (I miss you June Arvin Gudoy...so so much..)

...the day breaks, my soul aches...

...I keep on wishing that the next supposed typhoon doesn't hit this part of the world, or that it just disappears like magic like my first ex-boyfriend. Seems like that this is one of those days that don't really seem like anything happened, even though I've spent the whole afternoon choreographing for a friend and picked up my portable sewing machine and some costumes for repair. Thank God, Ces came with me to PETA...

Kakatapos ko lang maghugas ng pinggan kanina, at kahit papano ay sumaya ako. Ewan ko ba kung anong hiwaga ang mayroon sa paghuhugas ng pinggan at madalas kong hinahanap ang gawaing bahay na yun. I know it sounds kinda weird but washing dishes has always been my favorite chore. Almost everyone I know would rather pick sweeping the floor or wiping table tops, rather than wet their hands and scrub away all of the grime, oil and bits of food on utensils. Somehow, I always see dishwashing as a catharsis; a chance to think of the things that have been bothering me and just ponder on them. May prosesong pinagdadaanan, may paglilinis na nagaganap, at sa dulo'y may kasagutan at malinis na pinggan.

Ho hum...so much about dishwashing and the remains of my day.

Here's me looking forward to finishing all of the costumes for Don_Q before I leave for school later...

the goddess logs off for now..